I'm beginning to feel a little sick tonight. I have been trying to fix my computer all day, somehow I downloaded a virus and I had to go out and get a spyware kit and it was just a mess trying to get it all figured out, it literally took 3 hours to clean out all the junk on this computer.

I really need to get myself up to date on all of this stuff.

So today didn't turn out to be as productive as I thought it should have been work wise.

I went to the gym, then came home and began working on this and paying bills, I really need to get a job, I just don't know where in the heck I'll find the time to work, and go to school 12 hours a day 2 days a week, teach 2 lessons a week in different schools at opposite ends of town, prepare the lessons, and do whatever other work I get from my other classes that have kind of taken a back seat to my Education classes.
I really need to work, I know I do, but I am so afraid I won't be able to handle all of this stress, I become overwhelmingly dependent of food when I am in a vulnerable position, right now I am learning to cope with things, by have a free day once or twice a week, and still exercising. Truthfully I am selfish in a way, I want to be able to get up and go to the gym for 2 hours a day, then come home, shower, and do my school work at my pace, which is sort of slow, but that's how I get the good grades. LOL.
I mean you have to admit, for someone that dropped out of school at 16 to be pulling the grades I'm pulling I think I'm doing okay. However, I also think this may be one of the reasons I have some difficulty now and then with certain classes, because this is the first time I am being introduced to this stuff.

Like I said I'm not feeling to good tonight, I have this nagging tickle in my throat so I'm probablt going to go rest and finish up my work, then have a cup of tea and head to bed.