Friday, October 3, 2008

Friday.. I have a question

Why is is that I kicked my butt at the gym today and weighed in and saw a gain? This gets me so angry, I just don't get it, I mean it's really not mathematically possible, so I know something else is going on because my clothes are fitting better every week. TOM is here, so that could be the contributing factor, but it's such a pain in the a&& that I get so discouraged when I see that. I mean I FEEL great! I feel SKINNY! LOL, so I'm really not going to let that number get to me.

I am extremely stressed out with school, and if I tell you how many times I've said I want to give up this week you would be shocked. I feel like I just can't take the pressure any more. It's not the work that bothers me, it's actually trying to interpret what the heck these 3 professors want from us. I am not the only one that feels this way, and we have all come together, because of this common enemy so to speak, but no one seems to be doing anything about it.

I have been spending so much time doing work at the table that my back is starting to hurt from hunching over stuff. I do the work, email it, print it out, and bring it to school only for them to say "Oh one more thing" or "we're not doing it this way now" I mean make up your mind or move over and let someone else teach for you. It's ridiculous what they are doing. I don't even want to go into it, but just know last night I was really ready to quit. I won't, but I wanted to.

4 comments:

Janis said...

Hmm no real advice for you...I would think with TOM here it would be water retention but also if you're working out hard in the gym you are developing muscle which weighs more even though your clothes fit better. They say it's more important to follow your inches then lbs lost but it's easier to step on the scale rather then pull out that tape measure all the time! :)

Janis

Jeanne said...

I think you should wait to work out until AFTER you weigh in. Seems I read somewhere that muscle that is worked retains water or something....I don't remember the exact facts, I just think you should weigh in BEFORE you exercise!

It's worth a try!!

((hugs))
Jeanne

Linda said...

{{{Eva}}} I'm sorry that you are so stressed out about school. I don't know what is going on, but I do know that certain professors can make your life a living hell. I can understand why you would be frustrated and want to quit...I think everyone would feel the same way that you do. But, I know you are stronger than he is and you can go the distance...I KNOW this about you. Same with the weight loss....do not let a number on a dumb scale derail what you know to be true. You have been doing right by your body and that is what matters. YOU are winning the war and do not every forget that! YOU CAN DO THIS!

Love You!
Pooh Hugs,
Linda

MizMags said...

screw that scale, Eva. You are feeling GOOD and that's what's important. :) Love yourself!

love and hugs,
Maggie